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October 1860
A MODERN CINDERELLA: OR, THE LITTLE OLD SHOE
by Louisa May Alcott
HOW IT WAS LOST
Among green New England hills stood an ancient house, many-gabled,
mossy-roofed, and quaintly built, but picturesque and pleasant to the eye; for
a brook ran babbling through the orchard that encompassed it about, a
garden-plot stretched upward to the whispering birches on the slope, and
patriarchal elms stood sentinel upon the lawn, as they had stood almost a
century ago, when the Revolution rolled that way and found them young.
One summer morning, when the air was full of country sounds, of mowers in the
meadow, blackbirds by the brook, and the low of the kine upon the hill-side,
the old house wore its cheeriest aspect, and a certain humble history began.
"Nan!"
"Yes, Di."
And a head, brown-locked, blue-eyed, soft-featured, looked in at the open door
in answer to the call.
"Just bring me the third volume of 'Wilhelm Meister,'--there's a dear. It's
hardly worth while to rouse such a restless ghost as I, when I'm once fairly
laid."
As she spoke, Di pushed up her black braids, thumped the pillow of the couch
where she was lying, and with eager eyes went down the last page of her book.
"Nan!"
"Yes, Laura," replied the girl, coming back with the third volume for the
literary cormorant, who took it with a nod, still too intent upon the
"Confessions of a Fair Saint" to remember the failings of a certain plain
sinner.
"Don't forget the Italian cream for dinner. I depend upon it; for it's the only
thing fit for me this hot weather."
And Laura, the cool blonde, disposed the folds of her white gown more
gracefully about her, and touched up the eyebrow of the Minerva she was
drawing.
"Little daughter!"
"Yes, father."
"Let me have plenty of clean collars in my bag, for I must go at three; and
some of you bring me a glass of cider in about an hour;--I shall be in the
lower garden."
The old man went away into his imaginary paradise, and Nan into that domestic
purgatory on a summer day,--the kitchen. There were vines about the windows,
sunshine on the floor, and order everywhere; but it was haunted by a
cooking-stove, that family altar whence such varied incense rises to appease
the appetite of household gods, before which such dire incantations are
pronounced to ease the wrath and woe of the priestess of the fire, and about
which often linger saddest memories of wasted temper, time, and toil.
Nan was tired, having risen with the birds,--hurried, having many cares those
happy little housewives never know,--and disappointed in a hope that hourly
"dwindled, peaked, and pined." She was too young to make the anxious lines upon
her forehead seem at home there, too patient to be burdened with the labor
others should have shared, too light of heart to be pent up when earth and sky
were keeping a blithe holiday. But she was one of that meek sisterhood who,
thinking humbly of themselves, believe they are honored by being spent in the
service of less conscientious souls, whose careless thanks seem quite reward
enough.
To and fro she went, silent and diligent, giving the grace of willingness to
every humble or distasteful task the day had brought her; but some malignant
sprite seemed to have taken possession of her kingdom, for rebellion broke out
everywhere. The kettles would boil over most obstreperously,--the mutton
refused to cook with the meek alacrity to be expected from the nature of a
sheep,--the stove, with unnecessary warmth of temper, would glow like a fiery
furnace,--the irons would scorch,--the linens would dry,--and spirits would
fail, though patience never.
Nan tugged on, growing hotter and wearier, more hurried and more hopeless, till
at last the crisis came; for in one fell moment she tore her gown, burnt her
hand, and smutched the collar she was preparing to finish in the most
unexceptionable style. Then, if she had been a nervous woman, she would have
scolded; being a gentle girl, she only "lifted up her voice and wept."
"Behold, she watereth her linen with salt tears, and bewaileth herself because
of much tribulation. But, lo! help cometh from afar: a strong man bringeth
lettuce wherewith to stay her, plucketh berries to comfort her withal, and
clasheth cymbals that she may dance for joy."
The voice came from the porch, and, with her hope fulfilled, Nan looked up to
greet John Lord, the house-friend, who stood there with a basket on his arm;
and as she saw his honest eyes, kind lips, and helpful hands, the girl thought
this plain young man the comeliest, most welcome sight she had beheld that
day.
"How good of you, to come through all this heat, and not to laugh at my
despair!" she said, looking up like a grateful child, as she led him in.
"I only obeyed orders, Nan; for a certain dear old lady had a motherly
presentiment that you had got into a domestic whirlpool, and sent me as a sort
of life-preserver. So I took the basket of consolation, and came to fold my
feet upon the carpet of contentment in the tent of friendship."
As he spoke, John gave his own gift in his mother's name, and bestowed himself
in the wide window-seat, where morning-glories nodded at him, and the old
butternut sent pleasant shadows dancing to and fro.
His advent, like that of Orpheus in Hades, seemed to soothe all unpropitious
powers with a sudden spell. The fire began to slacken, the kettles began to
lull, the meat began to cook, the irons began to cool, the clothes began to
behave, the spirits began to rise, and the collar was finished off with most
triumphant success. John watched the change, and, though a lord of creation,
abased himself to take compassion on the weaker vessel, and was seized with a
great desire to lighten the homely tasks that tried her strength of body and
soul. He took a comprehensive glance about the room; then, extracting a dish
from the closet, proceeded to imbrue his hands in the strawberries' blood.
"Oh, John, you needn't do that; I shall have time when I've turned the meat,
made the pudding, and done these things. See, I'm getting on finely
now;--you're a judge of such matters; isn't that nice?"
As she spoke, Nan offered the polished absurdity for inspection with innocent
pride.
"Oh that I were a collar, to sit upon that hand!" sighed John,--adding
argumentatively, "As to the berry question, I might answer it with a gem from
Dr. Watts, relative to 'Satan' and 'idle hands,' but will merely say, that as a
matter of public safety, you'd better leave me alone; for such is the
destructiveness of my nature, that I shall certainly eat something hurtful,
break something valuable, or sit upon something crushable, unless you let me
concentrate my energies by knocking off these young fellows' hats, and
preparing them for their doom."
Looking at the matter in a charitable light, Nan consented, and went cheerfully
on with her work, wondering how she could have thought ironing an infliction,
and been so ungrateful for the blessings of her lot.
"Where's Sally?" asked John, looking vainly for the energetic functionary who
usually pervaded that region like a domestic police-woman, a terror to cats,
dogs, and men.
"She has gone to her cousin's funeral, and won't be back till Monday. There
seems to be a great fatality among her relations; for one dies, or comes to
grief in some way, about once a month. But I don't blame poor Sally for wanting
to get away from this place now and then. I think I could find it in my heart
to murder an imaginary friend or two, if I had to stay here long.
And Nan laughed so blithely, it was a pleasure to hear her.
"Where's Di?" asked John, seized with a most unmasculine curiosity all at
once.
"She is in Germany with 'Wilhelm Meister'; but, though 'lost to sight, to
memory dear'; for I was just thinking, as I did her things, how clever she is
to like all kinds of books that I don't understand at all, and to write things
that make me cry with pride and delight. 'Yes, she's a talented dear, though
she hardly knows a needle from a crowbar, and will make herself one great blot
some of these days, when the 'divine afflatus' descends upon her, I'm
afraid."
And Nan rubbed away with sisterly Zeal at Di's forlorn hose and inky
pocket-handkerchiefs.
"Where is Laura?" proceeded the inquisitor.
"Well, I might say that she was in Italy; for she is copying some fine thing of
Raphael's, or Michel Angelo's, or some great creature's or other; and she looks
so picturesque in her pretty gown, sitting before her easel, that it's really a
sight to behold, and I've peeped two or three times to see how she gets on."
And Nan bestirred herself to prepare the dish wherewith her picturesque sister
desired to prolong her artistic existence.
"Where is your father?" John asked again, checking off each answer with a nod
and a little frown.
"He is down in the garden, deep in some plan about melons, the beginning of
which seems to consist in stamping the first proposition in Euclid all over the
bed, and then poking a few seeds into the middle of each. Why, bless the dear
man! I forgot it was time for the cider. Wouldn't you like to take it to him,
John? He'd love to consult you; and the lane is so cool, it does one's heart
good to look at it."
John glanced from the steamy kitchen to the shadowy path, and answered with a
sudden assumption of immense industry,--
"I couldn't possibly go, Nan,--I've so much on my hands. You'll have to do it
yourself. 'Mr. Robert of Lincoln' has something for your private ear; and the
lane is so cool, it will do one's heart good to see you in it. Give my regards
to your father, and, in the words of 'Little Mabel's' mother, with slight
variations,--
'Tell the dear old body
This day I cannot run,
For the pots are boiling over
And the mutton isn't done.'"
"I will; but please, John, go in to the girls and be comfortable; for I don't
like to leave you here," said Nan.
"You insinuate that I should pick at the pudding or invade the cream, do you?
Ungrateful girl, leave me!" And, with melodramatic sternness, John extinguished
her in his broad-brimmed hat, and offered the glass like a poisoned goblet.
Nan took it, and went smiling away. But the lane might have been the desert of
Sahara, for all she knew of it; and she would have passed her father as
unconcernedly as if he had been an apple-tree, had he not called out,--
"Stand and deliver, little woman!"
She obeyed the venerable highwayman, and followed him to and fro, listening to
his plans and directions with a mute attention that quite won his heart.
"That hop-pole is really an ornament now, Nan; this sage-bed needs
weeding,--that's good work for you girls; and, now I think of it, you'd better
water the lettuce in the cool of the evening, after I'm gone."
To all of which remarks Nan gave her assent; though the hop-pole took the
likeness of a tall figure she had seen in the porch, the sage-bed, curiously
enough, suggested a strawberry ditto, the lettuce vividly reminded her of
certain vegetable productions a basket had brought, and the bob-o-link only
sung in his cheeriest voice, "Go home, go home! he is there!"
She found John--he having made a freemason of himself, by assuming her little
apron--meditating over the partially spread table, lost in amaze at its
desolate appearance; one half its proper paraphernalia having been forgotten,
and the other half put on awry. Nan laughed till the tears ran over her cheeks,
and John was gratified at the efficacy of his treatment; for her face had
brought a whole harvest of sunshine from the garden, and all her cares seemed
to have been lost in the windings of the lane.
"Nan, are you in hysterics?" cried Di, appearing, book in hand. "John, you
absurd man, what are you doing?"
"I'm helpin' the maid of all work, please marm." And John dropped a curtsy with
his limited apron.
Di looked ruffled, for the merry words were a covert reproach; and with her
usual energy of manner and freedom of speech she tossed "Wilhelm" out of the
window, exclaiming, irefully,--
"That's always the way; I'm never where I ought to be, and never think of
anything till it's too late; but it's all Goethe's fault. What does he write
books full of smart 'Phillinas' and interesting 'Meisters' for? How can I be
expected to remember that Sally's away, and people must eat, when I'm hearing
the 'Harper' and little 'Mignon'? John, how dare you come here and do my work,
instead of shaking me and telling me to do it myself? Take that toasted child
away, and fan her like a Chinese mandarin, while I dish up this dreadful
dinner."
John and Nan fled like chaff before the wind, while Di, full of remorseful
Zeal, charged at the kettles, and wrenched off the potatoes' jackets, as if she
were revengefully pulling her own hair. Laura had a vague intention of going to
assist; but, getting lost among the lights and shadows of Minerva's helmet,
forgot to appear till dinner had been evoked from chaos and peace was
restored.
At three o'clock, Di performed the coronation-ceremony with her father's best
hat; Laura re-tied his old-fashioned neck-cloth, and arranged his white locks
with an eye to saintly effect; Nan appeared with a beautifully written sermon,
and suspicious ink-stains on the fingers that slipped it into his pocket; John
attached himself to the bag; and the patriarch was escorted to the door of his
tent with the triumphal procession which usually attended his out-goings and
in-comings. Having kissed the female portion of his tribe, he ascended the
venerable chariot, which received him with audible lamentation, as its
rheumatic joints swayed to and fro.
"Good-bye, my dears! I shall be back early on Monday morning; so take care of
yourselves, and be sure you all go and hear Mr. Emerboy preach to-morrow. My
regards to your mother, John. Come, Solon!"
But Solon merely cocked one ear, and remained a fixed fact; for long experience
had induced the philosophic beast to take for his motto the Yankee maxim, "Be
sure you're right, then go ahead!" He knew things were not right; therefore he
did not go ahead.
"Oh, by-the-way, girls, don't forget to pay Tommy Mullein for bringing up the
cow: he expects it to-night. And, Di, don't sit up till daylight, nor let Laura
stay out in the dew. Now, I believe, I'm off. Come, Solon!"
But Solon only cocked the other ear, gently agitated his mortified tail, as
premonitory symptoms of departure, and never stirred a hoof, being well aware
that it always took three "comes" to make a "go."
"Bless me! I've forgotten my spectacles. They are probably shut up in that
volume of Herbert on my table. Very awkward to find myself without them ten
miles away. Thank you, John. Don't neglect to water the lettuce, Nan, and don't
overwork yourself, my little 'Martha.' Come"---
At this juncture, Solon suddenly went off, like "Mrs. Gamp," in a sort of
walking swoon, apparently deaf and blind to all mundane matters, except the
refreshments awaiting him ten miles away; and the benign old pastor
disappeared, humming "Hebron" to the creaking accompaniment of the bulgy
chaise.
Laura retired to take her siesta; Nan made a small carbonaro of herself by
sharpening her sister's crayons, and Di, as a sort of penance for past sins,
tried her patience over a piece of knitting, in which she soon originated a
somewhat remarkable pattern, by dropping every third stitch, and seaming ad
libitum. If John had been a gentlemanly creature, with refined tastes, he
would have elevated his feet and made a nuisance of himself by indulging in a
"weed"; but being only an uncultivated youth, with a rustic regard for pure air
and womankind in general, he kept his head uppermost, and talked like a man,
instead of smoking like a chimney.
"It will probably be six months before I sit here again, tangling your threads
and maltreating your needles, Nan. How glad you must feel to hear it!" he said,
looking up from a thoughtful examination of the hard-working little citizens of
the Industrial Community settled in Nan's work-basket.
"No, I'm very sorry; for I like to see you coming and going as you used to,
years ago, and I miss you very much when you are gone, John," answered truthful
Nan, whittling away in a sadly wasteful manner, as her thoughts flew back to
the happy times when a little lad rode a little lass in the big wheel-barrow,
and never split his load,--when two brown heads bobbed daily side by side to
school, and the favorite play was "Babes in the Wood," with Di for a somewhat
peckish robin to cover the small martyrs with any vegetable substance that lay
at hand. Nan sighed, as she though of these things, and John regarded the
battered thimble on his fingertip with increased benignity of aspect as he
heard the sound.
"When are you going to make your fortune, John, and get out of that
disagreeable hardware concern?" demanded Di, pausing after an exciting "round,"
and looking almost as much exhausted as if it had been a veritable pugilistic
encounter.
"I intend to make it by plunging still deeper into 'that disagreeable hardware
concern'; for, next year, if the world keeps rolling, and John Lord is alive,
he will become a partner, and then--and then"----
The color sprang up into the young man's cheek, his eyes looked out with a
sudden shine, and his hand seemed involuntarily to close, as if he saw and
seized some invisible delight.
"What will happen then, John?" asked Nan, with a wondering glance.
"I'll tell you in a year, Nan,--wait till then." And John's strong hand
unclosed, as if the desired good were not to be his yet.
Di looked at him, with a knitting-needle stuck into her hair, saying, like a
sarcastic unicorn,--
"I really thought you had a soul above pots and kettles, but I see you haven't;
and I beg your pardon for the injustice I have done you."
Not a whit disturbed, John smiled, as if at some mighty pleasant fancy of his
own, as he replied,--
"Thank you, Di; and as a further proof of the utter depravity of my nature, let
me tell you that I have the greatest possible respect for those articles of
ironmongery. Some of the happiest hours of my life have been spent in their
society; some of my pleasantest associations are connected with them; some of
my best lessons have come to me from among them; and when my fortune is made, I
intend to show my gratitude by taking three flat-irons rampant for my coat of
arms."
Nan laughed merrily, as she looked at the burns on her hand; but Di elevated
the most prominent feature of her brown countenance, and sighed
despondingly,--
"Dear, dear, what a disappointing world this is! I no sooner build a nice
castle in Spain, and settle a smart young knight therein, than down it comes
about my ears; and the ungrateful youth, who might fight dragons, if he chose,
insists on quenching his energies in a saucepan, and making a Saint Lawrence of
himself by wasting his life on a series of gridirons. Ah, if I were only a man,
I would do something better than that, and prove that heroes are not all dead
yet. But, instead of that, I'm only a woman, and must sit rasping my temper
with absurdities like this." And Di wrestled with her knitting as if it were
Fate, and she were paying off the grudge she owed it.
John leaned toward her, saying, with a look that made his plain face
handsome,--
"Di, my father began the world as I begin it, and left it the richer for the
useful years he spent here,--as I hope I may leave it some half-century hence.
His memory makes that dingy shop a pleasant place to me; for there he made an
honest name, led an honest life, and bequeathed to me his reverence for honest
work. That is a sort of hardware, Di, that no rust can corrupt, and which will
always prove a better fortune than any your knights can achieve with sword and
shield. I think I am not quite a clod, or quite without some aspirations above
money-getting; for I sincerely desire that courage which makes daily life
heroic by self-denial and cheerfulness of heart; I am eager to conquer my own
rebellious nature, and earn the confidence of innocent and upright souls; I
have a great ambition to become as good a man and leave as green a memory
behind me as old John Lord."
Di winked violently, and seamed five times in perfect silence; but quiet Nan
had the gift of knowing when to speak, and by a timely word saved her sister
from a thunder-shower and her stocking from destruction.
"John, have you seen Philip since you wrote about your last meeting with
him?"
The question was for John, but the soothing tone was for Di, who gratefully
accepted it, and perked up again with speed.
"Yes; and I meant to have told you about it," answered John, plunging into the
subject at once. "I saw him a few days before I came home, and found him more
disconsolate than ever,--'just ready to go to the Devil,' as he forcibly
expressed himself. I consoled the poor lad as well as I could, telling him his
wisest plan was to defer his proposed expedition, and go on as steadily as he
had begun,--thereby proving the injustice of your father's prediction
concerning his want of perseverance, and the sincerity of his affection. I told
him the change in Laura's health and spirits was silently working in his favor,
and that a few more months of persistent endeavor would conquer your father's
prejudice against him, and make him a stronger man for the trial and the pain.
I read him bits about Laura from your own and Di's letters, and he went away at
last as patient as Jacob, ready to serve another 'seven years' for his beloved
Rachel."
"God bless you for it, John!" cried a fervent voice; and, looking up, they saw
the cold, listless Laura transformed into a tender girl, all aglow with love
and longing, as she dropped her mask, and showed a living countenance eloquent
with the first passion and softened by the first grief of her life.
John rose involuntarily in the presence of an innocent nature whose sorrow
needed no interpreter to him. The girls read sympathy in his brotherly regard,
and found comfort in the friendly voice that asked, half playfully, half
seriously,--
"Shall I tell him that he is not forgotten, even for an Apollo? that Laura the
artist has not conquered Laura the woman? and predict that the good daughter
will yet prove the happy wife?"
With a gesture full of energy, Laura tore her Minerva from top to bottom, while
two great tears rolled down the cheeks grown wan with hope deferred.
"Tell him I believe all things, hope all things, and that I never can
forget."
Nan went to her and held her fast, leaving the prints of two loving, but grimy
hands upon her shoulders; Di looked on approvingly, for, though rather
stony-hearted regarding the cause, she fully appreciated the effect; and John,
turning to the window, received the commendations of a robin swaying on an
elm-bough with sunshine on its ruddy breast.
The clock struck five, and John declared that he must go; for, being an
old-fashioned soul, he fancied that his mother had a better right to his last
hour than any younger woman in the land,--always remembering that "she was a
widow, and he her only son."
Nan ran away to wash her hands, and came back with the appearance of one who
had washed her face also: and so she had; but there was a difference in the
water.
"Play I'm your father, girls, and remember it will be six months before 'that
John' will trouble you again."
With which preface the young man kissed his former playfellows as heartily as
the boy had been wont to do, when stern parents banished him to distant
schools, and three little maids bemoaned his fate. But times were changed now;
for Di grew alarmingly rigid during the ceremony; Laura received the salute
like a grateful queen; and Nan returned it with heart and eyes and tender lips,
making such an improvement on the childish fashion of the thing, that John was
moved to support his paternal character by softly echoing her father's
words,--"Take care of yourself, my little 'Martha.'"
Then they all streamed after him along the garden-path, with the endless
messages and warnings girls are so prone to give; and the young man, with a
great softness at his heart, went away, as many another John has gone, feeling
better for the companionship of innocent maidenhood, and stronger to wrestle
with temptation, to wait and hope and work.
"Let's throw a shoe after him for luck, as dear old 'Mrs. Gummage' did after
'David' and the 'willin' Barkis!' Quick, Nan! you always have old shoes on;
toss one, and shout, 'Good luck!'" cried Di, with one of her eccentric
inspirations.
Nan tore off her shoe, and threw it far along the dusty road, with a sudden
longing to become that auspicious article of apparel, that the omen might not
fail.
Looking backward from the hill-top, John answered the meek shout cheerily, and
took in the group with a lingering glance: Laura in the shadow of the elms, Di
perched on the fence, and Nan leaning far over the gate with her hand above her
eyes and the sunshine touching her brown hair with gold. He waved his hat and
turned away; but the music seemed to die out of the blackbird's song, and in
all the summer landscape his eye saw nothing but the little figure at the gate.
"Bless and save us! here's a flock of people coming; my hair is in a toss, and
Nan's without her shoe; run! fly, girls! or the Philistines will be upon us!"
cried Di, tumbling off her perch in sudden alarm.
Three agitated young ladies, with flying draperies and countenances of mingled
mirth and dismay, might have been seen precipitating themselves into a
respectable mansion with unbecoming haste; but the squirrels were the only
witnesses of this "vision of sudden flight," and, being used to ground-and-loft
tumbling, didn't mind it.
When the pedestrians passed, the door was decorously closed, and no one visible
but a young man who snatched something out of the road, and marched away again,
whistling with more vigor of tone than accuracy of tune, "Only that, and
nothing more."
HOW IT WAS FOUND
Summer ripened into autumn, and something fairer than
"Sweet-peas and mignonette
In Annie's garden grew."
Her nature was the counterpart of the hill-side grove, where as a child she had
read her fairy tales, and now as a woman turned the first pages of a more
wondrous legend still. Lifted above the many gabled roof, yet not cut off from
the echo of human speech, the little grove seemed a green sanctuary, fringed
about with violets, and full of summer melody and bloom. Gentle creatures
haunted it, and there was none to make afraid; wood-pigeons cooed and crickets
chirped their shrill roundelays, anemones and lady-ferns looked up from the
moss that kissed the wanderer's feet. Warm airs were all afloat, full of vernal
odors for the grateful sense, silvery birches shimmered like spirits of the
wood, larches gave their green tassels to the wind, and pines made airy music
sweet and solemn, as they stood looking heavenward through veils of summer
sunshine or shrouds of wintry snow.
Nan never felt alone now in this charmed wood; for when she came into its
precincts, once so full of solitude, all things seemed to wear one shape,
familiar eyes looked at her from the violets in the grass, familiar words
sounded in the whisper of the leaves, and she grew conscious that an unseen
influence filled the air with new delights, and touched earth and sky with a
beauty never seen before. Slowly these May-flowers budded in her maiden heart,
rosily they bloomed, and silently they waited till some lover of such lovely
herbs should catch their fresh aroma, should brush away the fallen leaves, and
lift them to the sun.
Though the eldest of the three, she had long been overtopped by the more
aspiring maids. But though she meekly yielded the reins of government, whenever
they chose to drive, they were soon restored to her again; for Di fell into
literature, and Laura into love. Thus engrossed, these two forgot many duties
which even blue-stockings and innamoratas are expected to perform, and slowly
all the homely humdrum cares that housewives know became Nan's daily life, and
she accepted it without a thought of discontent. Noiseless and cheerful as the
sunshine, she went to and fro, doing the tasks that mothers do, but without a
mother's sweet reward, holding fast the numberless slight threads that bind a
household tenderly together, and making each day a beautiful success.
Di, being tired of running, riding, climbing, and boating, decided at last to
let her body rest and put her equally active mind through what classical
collegians term "a course of sprouts." Having undertaken to read and know
everything, she devoted herself to the task with great energy, going from Sue
to Swedenborg with perfect impartiality, and having different authors as
children have sundry distempers, being fractious while they lasted, but all the
better for them when once over. Carlyle appeared like scarlet-fever, and raged
violently for a time; for, being anything but a "passive bucket," Di became
prophetic with Mahomet, belligerent with Cromwell, and made the French
Revolution a veritable Reign of Terror to her family. Goethe and Schiller
alternated like fever and ague; Mephistopheles became her hero, Joan of Arc her
model, and she turned her black eyes red over Egmont and Wallenstein. A mild
attack of Emerson followed, during which she was lost in a fog, and her sisters
rejoiced inwardly when she emerged informing them that
"The Sphinx was drowsy,
Her wings were furled."
Poor Di was floundering slowly to her proper place; but she splashed up a good
deal of foam by getting out of her depth, and rather exhausted herself by
trying to drink the ocean dry.
Laura, after the "midsummer night's dream" that often comes to girls of
seventeen woke up to find that youth and love were no match for age and common
sense. Philip had been flying about the world like a thistle-down for
five-and-twenty years, generous-hearted, frank, and kind, but with never an
idea of the serious side of life in his handsome head. Great, therefore, were
the wrath and dismay of the enamored thistle-down, when the father of his love
mildly objected seeing her begin the world in a balloon with a very tender but
very inexperienced aeronaut for a guide.
"Laura is too young to 'play house' yet, and you are too unstable to assume the
part of lord and master, Philip. Go and prove that you have prudence, patience,
energy, and enterprise, and I will give you my girl,--but not before. I must
seem cruel, that I may be truly kind; believe this, and let a little pain lead
you to great happiness, or show you where you would have made a bitter
blunder."
The lovers listened, owned the truth of the old man's words, bewailed their
fate, and--yielded,--Laura for love her father, Philip for love of her. He went
away to build a firm foundation for his castle in the air, and Laura retired
into an invisible convent, where she cast off the world, and regarded her
sympathizing sisters through a grate of superior knowledge and unsharable
grief. Like a devout nun, she worshipped "St. Philip," and firmly believed in
his miraculous powers. She fancied that her woes set her apart from common
cares, and slowly fell into a dreamy state, professing no interest in any
mundane matter, but the art that first attracted Philip. Crayons, bread-crusts,
and gray paper became glorified in Laura's eyes and her one pleasure was to sit
pale and still before her easel, day after day, filling her portfolios with the
faces he had once admired. Her sisters observed that every Bacchus, Piping
Faun, or Dying Gladiator bore some likeness to a comely countenance that
heathen god or hero never owned; and seeing this, they privately rejoiced that
she had found such solace for her grief.
Mrs. Lord's keen eye had read a certain newly written page in her son's
heart,--his first chapter of that romance, begun in Paradise, whose interest
never flags, whose beauty never fades, whose end can never come till Love lies
dead. With womanly skill she divined the secret with motherly discretion she
counselled patience, and her son accepted her advice, feeling, that, like many
a healthful herb, its worth lay in its bitterness.
"Love like a man, John, not like a boy, and learn to know yourself before you
take a woman's happiness into your keeping. You and Nan have known each other
all your lives; yet, till this last visit, you never thought you loved her more
than any other childish friend. It is too soon to say the words so often spoken
hastily,--so hard to be recalled. Go back to your work, dear, for another year;
think of Nan in the light of this new hope; compare her with comelier, gayer
girls; and by absence prove the truth of your belief. Then, if distance only
makes her dearer, if time only strengthens your affection, and no doubt of your
own worthiness disturbs you, come back and offer her what any woman should be
glad to take,--my boy's true heart."
John smiled at the motherly pride of her words, but answered with a wistful
look.
"It seems very long to wait, mother. If I could just ask her for a word of
hope, I could be very patient then."
"Ah, my dear, better bear one year of impatience now than a lifetime of regret
hereafter. Nan is happy; why disturb her by a word which will bring the tender
cares and troubles that come soon enough to such conscientious creatures as
herself? If she loves you, time will prove it; therefore let the new affection
spring and ripen as your early friendship has done, and it will be all the
stronger for a summer's growth. Philip was rash, and has to bear his trial now,
and Laura shares it with him. Be more generous, John; make your trial, bear
your doubts alone, and give Nan the happiness without the pain. Promise me
this, dear,--promise me to hope and wait."
The young man's eye kindled, and in his heart there rose a better chivalry, a
truer valor, than any Di's knights had ever known.
"I'll try, mother," was all he said; but she was satisfied, for John seldom
tried in vain.
"Oh, girls, how splendid you are!" It does my heart good to see my handsome
sisters in their best array," cried Nan, one mild October night as she put the
last touches to certain airy raiment fashioned by her own skilful hands, and
then fell back to survey the grand effect.
Di and Laura were preparing to assist at an "event of the season," and Nan,
with her own locks fallen on her shoulders, for want of sundry combs promoted
to her sisters' heads, and her dress in unwonted disorder, for lack of the many
pins extracted in exciting crises of the toilet, hovered like an affectionate
bee about two very full-blown flowers.
"Laura looks like a cool Undine, with the ivy-wreaths in her shining hair; and
Di has illuminated herself to such an extent with those scarlet leaves, that I
don't know what great creature she resembles most," said Nan, beaming with
sisterly admiration.
"Like Juno, Zenobia, and Cleopatra simmered into one, with a touch of Xantippe
by way of spice. But, to my eye, the finest woman of the three is the
dishevelled young person embracing the bed-post; for she stays at home herself
and gives her time and taste to making homely people fine,--which is a waste of
good material, and an imposition on the public."
As Di spoke, both the fashion-plates looked affectionately at the gray-gowned
figure; but, being works of art, they were obliged to nip their feelings in the
bud, and reserve their caresses till they returned to common life.
"Put on your bonnet, and we'll leave you at Mrs. Lord's on our way. It will do
you good, Nan; and perhaps there may be news from john," added Di, as she bore
down upon the door like a man-of-war under full sail.
"Or from Philip," sighed Laura, with a wistful look.
Whereupon Nan persuaded herself that her strong inclination to sit down was
owing to want of exercise, and the heaviness of her eyelids a freak of
imagination; so, speedily smoothing her ruffled plumage, she ran down to tell
her father of the new arrangement.
"Go, my dear, by all means. I shall be writing; and you will be lonely, if you
stay. But I must see my girls; for I caught glimpses of certain surprising
phantoms flitting by the door."
Nan led the way, and the two pyramids revolved before him with the rigidity of
lay-figures, much to the good man's edification; for with his fatherly pleasure
there was mingled much mild wonderment at the amplitude of the array.
"Yes, I see my geese are really swans, though there is such a cloud between us
that I feel a long way off, and hardly know them. But this little daughter is
always available, always my 'cricket on the hearth.'"
As he spoke, her father drew Nan closer, kissed her tranquil face, and smiled
content.
"Well, if ever I see picters, I see'em now, and I declare to goodness it's as
interestin'as play-actin', every bit. Miss Di, with all them boughs in her
head, looks like the Queen of Sheby, when she went a-visitin' What's-his-name;
and if Miss Laura a'n't as sweet as a lally-barster figger, I should like to
know what is."
In her enthusiasm, Sally gambolled about the girls, flourishing her milk-pan
like a modern Miriam about to sound her timbrel for excess of joy.
Laughing merrily, the two Mont Blancs bestowed themselves in the family ark,
Nan hopped up beside Patrick, and Solon, roused from his lawful slumbers,
morosely trundled them away. But, looking backward with a last "Good night!"
Nan saw her father still standing at the door with smiling countenance, and the
moonlight falling like a benediction on his silver hair.
"Betsey shall go up the hill with you, my dear, and here's a basket of eggs for
your father. Give him my love, and be sure you let me know the next time he is
poorly," Mrs. Lord said, when her guest rose to depart after an hour of
pleasant chat.
But Nan never got the gift; for, to her great dismay, her hostess dropped the
basket with a crash, and flew across the room to meet a tall shape pausing in
the shadow of the door. There was no need to ask who the new-comer was; for,
even in his mother's arms, John looked over her shoulder with an eager nod to
Nan, who stood among the ruins with never a sign of weariness in her face, nor
the memory of a care at her heart,--for they all went out when John came in.
"Now tell us how and why and when you came. Take off your coat, my dear! And
here are the old slippers. Why didn't you let us know you were coming so soon?
How have you been? and what makes you so late to-night? Betsey, you needn't put
on your bonnet. And--oh, my dear boy, have you been to supper yet?"
Mrs. Lord was a quiet soul, and her flood of questions was purred softly in her
son's ear; for, being a woman, she must talk, and being a mother, must pet the
one delight of her life, and make a little festival when the lord of the manor
came home. A whole drove of fatted calves were metaphorically killed, and a
banquet appeared with speed.
John was not one of those romantic heroes who can go through three volumes of
hairbreadth escapes without the faintest hint of that blessed institution,
dinner; therefore, like "Lady Leatherbridge," he "partook copiously of
everything," while the two women beamed over each mouthful with an interest
that enhanced its flavor, and urged upon him cold meat and cheese, pickles and
pie, as if dyspepsia and nightmare were among the lost arts.
Then he opened his budget of news and fed them.
I was coming next month, according to custom; but Philip fell upon and so
tempted me, that I was driven to sacrifice myself to the cause of friendship,
and up we came to-night. He would not let me come here till we had seen your
father, Nan; for the poor lad was pining for Laura, and hoped his good behavior
for the past year would satisfy his judge and secure his recall. We had a fine
talk with your father; and, upon my life, Phil seemed to have received the gift
of tongues, for he made a most eloquent plea, which I've stored away for future
use, I assure you. The dear old gentleman was very kind, told Phil he was
satisfied with the success of his probation, that he should see Laura when he
liked, and, if all went well, should receive his reward in the spring. It must
be a delightful sensation to know you have made a fellow-creature happy as
those words made Phil to-night."
John paused, and looked musingly at the matronly tea-pot, as if he saw a
wondrous future in its shine.
Nan twinkled off the drops that rose at the thought of Laura's joy, and said,
with grateful warmth,--
"You say nothing of your own share in the making of that happiness, John; but
we know it, for Philip has told Laura in his letter all that you have been to
him, and I am sure there was other eloquence beside his own before father
granted all you say he has. Oh, John, I thank you very much for this!"
Mrs. Lord beamed a whole midsummer of delight upon her son, as she saw the
pleasure these words gave him, though he answered simply,--
"I only tried to be a brother to him, Nan; for he has been most kind to me.
Yes, I said my little say to-night, and gave my testimony in behalf of the
prisoner at the bar, a most merciful judge pronounced his sentence, and he
rushed straight to Mrs. Leigh's to tell Laura the blissful news. Just imagine
the scene when he appears, and how Di will open her wicked eyes and enjoy the
spectacle of the dishevelled lover, the bride-elect's tears, the stir, and the
romance of the thing. She'll cry over it to-night, and caricature it
to-morrow."
And John led the laugh at the picture he had conjured up, to turn the thoughts
of Di's dangerous sister from himself.
At ten Nan retired into the depths of her old bonnet with a far different face
from the one she brought out of it, and John, resuming his hat, mounted
guard.
"Don't stay late, remember, John!" And in Mrs. Lord's voice there was a warning
tone that her son interpreted aright.
"I'll not forget, mother."
And he kept his word; for though Philip's happiness floated temptingly before
him, and the little figure at his side had never seemed so dear, he ignored the
bland winds, the tender night, and set a seal upon his lips, thinking manfully
within himself, "I see many signs of promise in her happy face; but I will wait
and hope a little longer for her sake."
"Where is father, Sally?" asked Nan, as that functionary appeared, blinking
owlishly, but utterly repudiating the idea of sleep.
"He went down the garding, miss, when the gentlemen cleared, bein' a little
flustered by the goin's on. Shall I fetch him in?" asked Sally, as irreverently
as if her master were a bag of meal.
"No, we will go ourselves." And slowly the two paced down the leaf-strewn
walk.
Fields of yellow grain were waving on the hill-side, and sere corn-blades
rustled in the wind, from the orchard came the scent of ripening fruit, and all
the garden-plots lay ready to yield up their humble offerings to their master's
hand. But in the silence of the night a greater Reaper had passed by, gathering
in the harvest of a righteous life, and leaving only tender memories for the
gleaners who had come so late.
The old man sat in the shadow of the tree his own hands planted; its fruitful
boughs shone ruddily, and its leaves still whispered the low lullaby that
hushed him to his rest.
"How fast he sleeps! Poor father! I should have come before and made it
pleasant for him."
As she spoke, Nan lifted up the head bend down upon his breast, and kissed his
pallid cheek.
"Oh, John, this is not sleep!"
"Yes, dear, the happiest he will ever know."
For a moment the shadows flickered over three white faces and the silence
deepened solemnly. Then John reverently bore the pale shape in, and Nan dropped
down beside it, saying, with a rain of grateful years,--
"He kissed me when I went, and said a last 'good night!'"
For an hour steps went to and fro about her, many voices whispered near her,
and skilful hands touched the beloved clay she held so fast; but one by one the
busy feet passed out, one by one the voices died away, and human skill proved
vain. Then Mrs. Lord drew the orphan to the shelter of her arms, soothing her
with the mute solace of that motherly embrace.
"Nan, Nan! here's Philip! come and see!"
The happy call reechoed through the house, and Nan sprang up as if her time for
grief were past.
"I must tell them. Oh, my poor girls, how will they bear it?--they have known
so little sorrow!"
But there was no need for her to speak; other lips had spared her the hard
task. For, as she stirred to meet them, a sharp cry rent the air, steps rang
upon the stairs, and the two wild-eyed creatures came into the hush of that
familiar room, for the first time meeting with no welcome from their father's
voice.
With one impulse, Di and Laura fled to Nan, and the sisters clung together in a
silent embrace, far more eloquent than words. John took his mother by the hand,
and led her from the room, closing the door upon the sacredness of grief.
"Yes, we are poorer than we thought; but when everything is settled, we shall
get on very well. We can let a part of this great house, and live quietly
together until spring; then Laura will be married, and Di can go on their
travels with them, as Philip wishes her to do. We shall be cared for; so never
fear for us, John."
Nan said this, as her friend parted from her a week later, after the saddest
holiday he had ever known.
"And what becomes of you, Nan?" he asked, watching the patient eyes that smiled
when others would have wept.
"I shall stay in the dear old house; for no other place would seem like home to
me. I shall find some little child to love and care for, and be quite happy
till the girls come back and want me."
John nodded wisely, as he listened, and went away prophesying within
himself,--
"She shall find something more than a child to love; and, God willing, shall be
very happy till the girls come home and--cannot have her."
Nan's plan was carried into effect. Slowly the divided waters closed again, and
the three fell back into their old life. But the touch of sorrow drew them
closer; and, though invisible, a beloved presence still moved among them, a
familiar voice still spoke to them in the silence of their softened hearts.
Thus the soil was made ready, and in the depth of winter the good seed was
sown, was watered with many tears, and soon sprang up green with the promise of
a harvest for their after years.
Di and Laura consoled themselves with their favorite employments, unconscious
that Nan was growing paler, thinner, and more silent, as the weeks went by,
till one day she dropped quietly before them, and it suddenly became manifest
that she was utterly worn out with many cares and the secret suffering of a
tender heart bereft of the paternal love which had been its strength and
stay.
"I'm only tired, dear girls. Don't be troubled, for I shall be up to-morrow,"
she said cheerily, as she looked into the anxious faces bending over her.
But the weariness was of many months' growth, and it was weeks before that
"tomorrow" came.
Laura installed herself as a nurse, and her devotion was repaid four-fold; for,
sitting at her sister's bedside, she learned a finer art than that she had
left. Her eye grew clear to see the beauty of a self-denying life, and in the
depths of Nan's meek nature she found the strong, sweet virtues that made her
what she was.
Then remembering that these womanly attributes were a bride's best dowry, Laura
gave herself to their attainment, that she might become to another household
the blessing Nan had been to her own; and turning from the worship of the
goddess Beauty, she gave her hand to that humbler and more human teacher,
Duty,--learning her lessons with a willing heart, for Philips' sake.
Di corked her inkstand, locked her bookcase, and went at housework as if it
were a five-barred gate; of course she missed the leap, but scrambled bravely
through, and appeared much sobered by the exercise. Sally had departed to sit
under a vine and fig-tree of her own, so Di had undisputed sway; but if
dish-pans and dusters had tongues, direful would have been the history of that
crusade against frost and fire, indolence and inexperience. But they were dumb,
and Di scorned to complain, though her struggles were pathetic to behold, and
her sisters went thought a series of messes equal to a course of "Prince
Benreddin's" peppery tarts. Reality turned Romance out of doors; for, unlike
her favorite heroines in satin and tears, or helmet and shield, Di met her fate
in a big checked apron and dust-cap, wonderful to see; yet she wielded her
broom as stoutly as "Moll Pitcher" shouldered her gun, and marched to her daily
martyrdom in the kitchen with as heroic a heart as the "Maid of Orleans" took
to her stake.
Mind won the victory over matter in the end, and Di was better all her days for
the tribulations and the triumphs of that time; for she drowned her idle
fancies in her wash-tub, made burnt-offerings of selfishness and pride, and
learned the worth of self-denial, as she sang with happy voice among the pots
and kettles of her conquered realm.
Nan thought of John, and in the stillness of her sleepless nights prayed Heaven
to keep him safe, and make her worthy to receive and strong enough to bear the
blessedness or pain of love.
Snow fell without, and keen winds howled among the leafless elms, but "herbs of
grace" were blooming beautifully in the sunshine of sincere endeavor, and this
dreariest season proved the most fruitful of the year; for love taught Laura,
labor chastened Di, and patience fitted Nan for the blessing of her life.
Nature, that stillest, yet most diligent of housewives, began at last that
"spring-cleaning" which she makes so pleasant that none find the heart to
grumble as they do when other matrons set their premises a-dust. Her handmaids,
wind and rain and sun, swept, washed, and garnished busily, green carpets were
unrolled, apple-boughs were hung with draperies of bloom, and dandelions, pet
nurslings of the year, came out to play upon the sward.
From the South returned that opera troupe whose manager is never in despair,
whose tenor never sulks, whose prima donna never fails, and in the orchard bona
fide matinees were held, to which buttercups and clovers crowded in their
prettiest spring hats and verdant young blades twinkled their dewy lorgnettes,
as they bowed and made way for the floral belles.
May was bidding June good-morrow, and the roses were just dreaming that it was
almost time to wake, when John came again into the quiet room which now seemed
the Eden that contained his Eve. Of course there was a jubilee; but something
seemed to have befallen the whole group, for never had they all appeared in
such odd frames of mind. John was restless, and wore an excited look, most
unlike his usual serenity of aspect.
Nan the cheerful had fallen into a well of silence and was not to be extracted
by any hydraulic power, though she smiled like the June sky over her head. Di's
peculiarities were out in full force, and she looked as if she would go off
like a torpedo at a touch; but through all her moods there was a
half-triumphant, half-remorseful expression in the glance she fixed on John.
And Laura, once so silent, now sang like a blackbird, as she flitted to and
fro; but her fitful song was always, "Philip, my king."
John felt that there had come a change upon the three, and silently divined
whose unconscious influence had wrought the miracle. The embargo was off his
tongue, and he was in a fever to ask that question which brings a flutter to
the stoutest heart; but though the "man" had come, the "hour" had not. So, by
way of steadying his nerves, he paced the room, pausing often to take notes of
his companions, and each pause seemed to increase his wonder and content.
He looked at Nan. She was in her usual place, the rigid little chair she loved,
because it once was large enough to hold a curly-headed playmate and herself.
The old work-basket was at her side, and the battered thimble busily at work;
but her lips wore a smile they had never worn before, the color of the unblown
roses touched her cheek, and her downcast eyes were full of light.
He looked at Di. The inevitable book was on her knee, but its leaves were
uncut; the strong-minded knob of hair still asserted its supremacy aloft upon
her head, and the triangular jacket still adorned her shoulders in defiance of
all fashions, past, present, or to come; but the expression of her brown
countenance had grown softer, her tongue had found a curb, and in her hand lay
a card with "Potts, Kettel, & Co." inscribed thereon, which she regarded
with never a scornful word for the "Co."
He looked at Laura. She was before her easel, as of old; but the pale nun had
given place to a blooming girl, who sang at her work, which was no prim Pallas,
but a Clytie turning her human face to meet the sun.
"John, what are you thinking of?"
He stirred as if Di's voice had disturbed his fancy at some pleasant pastime,
but answered with his usual sincerity,--
"I was thinking of a certain dear old fairy tale called 'Cinderella.'"
"Oh!" said Di; and her "Oh" was a most impressive monosyllable. "I see the
meaning of your smile now; and though the application of the story is not very
complimentary to all parties concerned, it is very just and very true."
She paused a moment, then went on with softened voice and earnest mien:--
"You think I am a blind and selfish creature. So I am, but no so blind and
selfish as I have been; for many tears have cleared my eyes, and much sincere
regret has made me humbler than I was. I have found a better book than any
father's library can give me, and I have read it with a love and admiration
that grew stronger as I turned the leaves. Henceforth I take it for my guide
and gospel, and, looking back upon the selfish and neglectful past, can only
say, Heaven bless your dear heart, Nan!"
Laura echoed Di's last words; for, with eyes as full of tenderness, she looked
down upon the sister she had lately learned to know, saying, warmly,--
"Yes, 'Heaven bless your dear heart, Nan!' I never can forget all you have been
to me; and when I am far away with Philip, there will always be one countenance
more beautiful to me than any pictured face I may discover, there will be one
place more dear to me than Rome. The face will be yours, Nan,--always so
patient, always so serene; and the dearer place will be this home of ours,
which you have made so pleasant to me all these years by kindnesses as
numberless and noiseless as the drops of dew."
"Dear girls, what have I ever done, that you should love me so?" cried Nan,
with happy wonderment, as the tall heads, black and golden, bent to meet the
lowly brown one, and her sisters' mute lips answered her.
Then Laura looked up, saying, playfully,--
"Here are the good and wicked sisters;--where shall we find the Prince?"
"There!" cried Di, pointing to John; and then her secret went off like a
rocket; for, with her old impetuosity she said,--
"I have found you out, John, and am ashamed to look you in the face,
remembering the past. Girls, you know, when father died, John sent us money,
which he said Mr. Owen had long owed us and had paid at last? It was a kind
lie, John, and a generous thing to do; for we needed it, but never would have
taken it as a gift. I know you meant that we should never find this out; but
yesterday I met Mr. Owen returning from the West, and when I thanked him for a
piece of justice we had not expected of him, he gruffly told me he had never
paid the debt, never meant to pay it, for it was outlawed, and we could not
claim a farthing. John, I have laughed at you, thought you stupid, treated you
unkindly; but I know you now, and never shall forget the lesson you have taught
me. I am proud as Lucifer, but I ask you to forgive me, and I seal my real
repentance so--and so."
With tragic countenance, Di rushed across the room, threw both arms about the
astonished young man's neck and dropped an energetic kiss upon his cheek. There
was a momentary silence; for Di finely illustrated her strong-minded theories
by crying like the weakest of her sex. Laura, with "the ruling passion strong
in death," still tried to draw, but broke her pet crayon, and endowed her
Clytie with a supplementary orb, owing to the dimness of her own. And Nan sat
with drooping eyes, that shone upon her work, thinking with tender pride,--
"They know him now, and love him for his generous heart."
Di spoke first, rallying to her colors though a little daunted by her loss of
self-control.
"Don't laugh, John,--I couldn't help it; and don't think I'm not sincere, for I
am,--I am; and I will prove it by growing good enough to be your friend. That
debt must all be paid, and I shall do it; for I'll turn my books and pen to
some account, and write stories full of dear old souls like you and Nan; and
some one, I know, will like and buy them, though they are not 'works of
Shakspeare.' I've thought of this before, have felt I had the power in me; now
I have the motive, and now I'll do it."
If Di had proposed to translate the Koran, or build a new Saint Paul's, there
would have been many chances of success; for, once moved, her will, like a
battering-ram, would knock down the obstacles her wits could not surmount. John
believed in her most heartily, and showed it, as he answered, looking into her
resolute face,--
"I know you will, and yet make us very proud of our 'Chaos,' Di. Let the money
lie, and when you have made a fortune, I'll claim it with enormous interest;
but, believe me, I feel already doubly repaid by the esteem so generously
confessed, so cordially bestowed, and can only say, as we used to years
ago,--'Now let's forgive and forget.'"
But proud Di would not let him add to her obligation, even by returning her
impetuous salute; she slipped away, and, shaking off the last drops, answered
with a curious mixture of old freedom and new respect,--
"No more sentiment, please, John. We know each other now; and when I find a
friend, I never let him go. We have smoked the pipe of peace; so let us go back
to our wigwams and bury the feud. Where were we when I lost my head? and what
were we talking about?"
"Cinderella and the Prince."
As he spoke, John's eye kindled, and turning, he looked down at Nan, who sat
diligently ornamenting with microscopic stitches a great patch going on, the
wrong side out.
"Yes,--so we were; and now taking pussy for the godmother, the characters of
the story are well personated,--all but the slipper," said Di, laughing, as she
though of the many times they had played it together years ago.
A sudden movement stirred John's frame, a sudden purpose shone in his
countenance, and a sudden change befell his voice, as he said, producing from
some hiding-place a little worn-out shoe,--
"I can supply the slipper;--who will try it first?"
Di's black eyes opened wide, as they fell on the familiar object; then her
romance-loving nature saw the whole plot of that drama which needs but two to
act it. A great delight flushed up into her face, as she promptly took her cue,
saying,--
"No need for us to try it, Laura; for it wouldn't fit us, if our feet were as
small as Chinese dolls';--our parts are played out; therefore 'Exeunt wicked
sisters to the music of the wedding-bells.'" and pouncing upon the dismayed
artist she swept her out and closed the door with a triumphant bang.
John went to Nan, and, dropping on his knee as reverently as the herald of the
fairy tale, he asked, still smiling but with lips grown tremulous,--
"Will Cinderella try the little shoe, and--if it fits--go with the Prince?"
But Nan only covered up her face, weeping happy tears, while all the weary work
strayed down upon the floor, as if it knew her holiday had come.
John drew the hidden face still closer, and while she listened to his eager
words, Nan heard the beating of the strong man's heart, and knew it spoke the
truth.
"Nan, I promised mother to be silent till I was sure I loved you wholly,--sure
that the knowledge would give no pain when I should tell it, as I am trying to
tell it now. This little shoe has been my comforter through this long year, and
I have kept it as other lovers keep their fairer favors. It has been a talisman
more eloquent to me than flower or ring; for, when I saw how worn it was, I
always though of the willing feet that came and went for others' comfort all
day long; when I saw the little bow you tied, I always though to the hands so
diligent in serving any one who knew a want or felt a pain; and when I recalled
the gentle creature who had worn it last, I always saw her patient, tender, and
devout,--and tried to grow more worthy of her, that I might one day dare to ask
if she would walk beside me all my life and be my 'angel in the house.' Will
you, dear? Believe me, you shall never know a weariness of grief I have the
power to shield you from."
Then Nan, as simple in her love as in her life, laid her arms about his neck,
her happy face against his own, and answered softly,--
"Oh, John, I never can be sad or tired any more!"
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